Carl finds himself on “Candid Camera”

Carl woke up in a positive mood. It was Sunday morning and the early spring sun was shining through his window. He went downstairs into the kitchen and discovered that he had forgotten to set the auto-brew timer coffee pot the night before.

This aggravated him deeply.

Because Carl slept later on Sundays, there was no time to brew a new pot before having to leave for church. He had to be there this Sunday because he was a board member of the church and they were having an important meeting today. As he went out the door he noticed that he must have misplaced his cell phone and left without it.

Outside, the wind was blowing and messed up his carefully combed hair.

His mood changed from irritation to happiness as he arrived at the church and was greeted with many warm smiles from friends. He felt a warm glow in his heart for the sacrifice and service he was contributing to the church and its community.

After the church service and feeling re-energized by a wonderful sermon, Carl moved to the meeting room where the church board would discuss various issues and offer solutions. One member of the board was really bugging Carl since he opposed all Carl’s ideas. Carl carefully kept his anger for this person hidden deep within, to preserve his image of looking impartial to the group.

Later in the afternoon, Carl decided to get a quick bite to eat at a popular restaurant nearby and lick his wounds. As he sat eating his “foo-foo” sandwich, he noticed a pretty young lady at another table staring at him from time to time with a flirty smile. This unexpected attention put Carl back into a happy mood again.

As he left the restaurant, he was caught in a cloudburst and it began to rain heavily. His car was parked far enough away that he was fully drenched, running to it.

He returned home dripping wet and in a foul mood. Putting on some dry clothes, he settled into his favorite easy chair and turned on the football game. Carl felt better again until he saw that his home team was losing badly. His mouth spattered with saliva as he cursed the large flat screen TV.

Since there was no way his team was going to pull off a victory, Carl decided he could at least get something done on his “to-do” list. So he went through his mail to pay some bills. Tucked within the usual pile of bills and junk mail was a letter from a publishing company that he had sent his manuscript to. He quickly opened it. They had accepted his manuscript for publication! He was on top of the world again. If he only had known that he was going to be a published author, he would have had more confidence in introducing himself to the young lady who flirted with him in the restaurant.

Carl wanted to share this great news with his friends, but again couldn’t find his cell phone. His anger returned.

Suddenly, an angelic being clad in heavenly light appeared in Carl’s room. She said, “I borrowed your phone for awhile.”

“Why?” asked Carl, feeling both shocked and confused.

“You can’t convince somebody to obtain something that he or she thinks they already have,” said the beautiful angelic creature.

“Huh? What do I think I falsely believe I already have?” questioned Carl.

“Individuality,” replied the angel. She then returned the phone to Carl, saying, “I shot video of you all day. I want you to look at it now.”

As Carl viewed his actions of the day on his phone screen, he noticed how often that he had “changed” into quite different and contradictory people.

“The only thing about you that didn’t change all day was your name. How can you have individuality if you manifest such contradictions? Which of these persons is the real you?” asked the angel, point blank.

Carl was stunned. He would not have noticed these blatant inconsistencies of his character unless they were visibly shown to him.

The angel explained, “It is through the faulty operation of the human psyche that these contradictions are allowed to exist side by side—yet go unnoticed. Everything on this video shows the makeup of your inner reality, which is disjointed and scatter-brained. These disconnected states of mind lead to spiritual trance and delusion. This trance is a sign that your egoism is still well entrenched, because it buffers and softens the impact of any accidental contact between our character inconsistencies. It keeps us calm while our spiritual house is on fire!”

“You are right. Many of these odd behaviors can simply be written off as having a ‘bad day’ and therefore, nothing to get unduly upset over,” said Carl.

“To have real individuality, you must—through definite spiritual efforts—create an inner fusion of your psychical energies,” continued the angel. “Otherwise, in the life beyond, when you live as a spirit, you will continue to be bounced around from one mood or state of mind to another—with no escape.”

Carl admits, “Looking at this video it becomes obvious that I have made assumptions about myself that have no basis in reality. Gee, I even go to church with such faulty assumptions. Inner fusion is a new idea for me. Now, what do I do?”

“I am ready to teach you additional details of God’s wise methods for creating the proper friction and heat to forge your legitimate inner unity and spiritual personhood,” spoke the angel with a most beautiful smile.

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EDWARD F. SYLVIA, M.T.S. Philosopher/Theologian Edward F. Sylvia attended the School of Visual Arts in New York and received his Master of Theological Studies at the Pacific School of Religion in Berkeley, CA and a Certificate of Swedenborgian Studies from the Swedenborgian House of Studies. He is a member of the Center for Theology and the Natural Sciences (C.T.N.S.) and the Swedenborg Scientific Association (S.S.A.). Award-winning author of "Sermon From the Compost Pile: Seven Steps Toward Creating An Inner Garden" and "Proving God," which fulfills a continuing vision that God’s fingerprints of love can be found everywhere in the manifest universe. His most recent book, "Swedenborg & Gurdjieff: The Missing Links" is an edgy collection of anti-intuitive essays for personal transformation that challenges and inspires. He has been a student of the ideas of both Emanuel Swedenborg and George I. Gurdjieff for over thirty years. Read more about TheGodGuy, his books and his ideas at
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