Escaping from my friends

I am sitting among some respected friends who have gotten together to discuss deep spiritual ideas.

I feel fortunate that I am associated with such special individuals. The meeting gives me a warm and cozy feeling of togetherness, belonging and self-affirmation.

Then something new and unexpected happens. While still contributing to the discussion I get a rare awareness and glimpse of myself. I become fully aware of my body, feelings and thoughts as I am sitting in my chair.

I feel as though I have removed some cobwebs from my existence.

My hands are resting on my knees. I turn my left palm upwards on my left knee. No one notices. But in this small unnatural gesture I have increased my level of consciousness and gained a new degree of freedom.

I begin to wonder about what the heck I was doing before having this heightened state of mind. I was simply doing what everyone else was doing in the room—reacting to external stimuli, making associations and responding from material stored in my memory. In other words, I was missing in action and operating on automatic pilot.

Then I make a further shocking and unflattering synaptic discovery—that even people with highly developed intellects and good intentions can be operating from a trance-like state of mind. I found myself in a room of absent people.

And, for a brief moment, I clearly understood what Emanuel Swedenborg meant by all the Bible warnings that we were to awaken.

Now I have been put in a very uncomfortable position!

About thegodguy

EDWARD F. SYLVIA, M.T.S. Philosopher/Theologian Edward F. Sylvia attended the School of Visual Arts in New York and received his Master of Theological Studies at the Pacific School of Religion in Berkeley, CA and a Certificate of Swedenborgian Studies from the Swedenborgian House of Studies. He is a member of the Center for Theology and the Natural Sciences (C.T.N.S.) and the Swedenborg Scientific Association (S.S.A.). Award-winning author of "Sermon From the Compost Pile: Seven Steps Toward Creating An Inner Garden" and "Proving God," which fulfills a continuing vision that God’s fingerprints of love can be found everywhere in the manifest universe. His most recent book, "Swedenborg & Gurdjieff: The Missing Links" is an edgy collection of anti-intuitive essays for personal transformation that challenges and inspires. He has been a student of the ideas of both Emanuel Swedenborg and George I. Gurdjieff for over thirty years. Read more about TheGodGuy, his books and his ideas at
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