An amusing observation

LaurelWreath2Many, many years ago I felt the reality of my inner nullity. I had many creative talents but I saw real signs of my flawed character prowling just below the surface.

To resolve this feeling of inner emptiness, rather than making sincere personal changes, I decided I would write a very important book. It took me over thirty years to finally write the book (Proving God) and I learned a very painful fact along the way—I am an idiot. (I had no intentions of honestly exploring and addressing my flawed character traits. I just wanted to be thought of as smart.)

My amusing observation is that many people who have experienced failure in their personal lives suddenly decide to become experts or specialists in some field (including the ministry). The motive here is to become helpful to others. What is most strange about all this helpfulness is that such “experts” never seem to get any closer to solving their own deeper personal problems. They can dish out tons of advice but haven’t got a clue to finding their own genuine happiness.

There is a “disconnect” here. Our need to gain status, importance, fame and personal validation is often a ruse (and a cover-up).

I have come to know (after studying the ideas of Emanuel Swedenborg and George Gurdjieff) that the changes we are willing to make are mostly superficial and often don’t go deep enough.

The other problem is that we always rush to change how we are viewed by the world instead of how we are viewed by the Lord God and heaven’s angels—who are never fooled by external adaptations or efforts or high-sounding titles.

In the Seven Day Creation Story of Genesis, which symbolically addresses the steps of our spiritual evolution, we start off as a “void.” In other words, the process of genuine personal transformation doesn’t begin unless we can get some sense of our own nothingness. So if we decide to become experts at something, before addressing our own inner realities, we will remain empty.

And no real or lasting change will result.  As Gurdjieff would say, “Celebrity is less than smoke.”

About thegodguy

EDWARD F. SYLVIA, M.T.S. Philosopher/Theologian Edward F. Sylvia attended the School of Visual Arts in New York and received his Master of Theological Studies at the Pacific School of Religion in Berkeley, CA and a Certificate of Swedenborgian Studies from the Swedenborgian House of Studies. He is a member of the Center for Theology and the Natural Sciences (C.T.N.S.) and the Swedenborg Scientific Association (S.S.A.). Award-winning author of "Sermon From the Compost Pile: Seven Steps Toward Creating An Inner Garden" and "Proving God," which fulfills a continuing vision that God’s fingerprints of love can be found everywhere in the manifest universe. His most recent book, "Swedenborg & Gurdjieff: The Missing Links" is an edgy collection of anti-intuitive essays for personal transformation that challenges and inspires. He has been a student of the ideas of both Emanuel Swedenborg and George I. Gurdjieff for over thirty years. Read more about TheGodGuy, his books and his ideas at
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