Imagined halos

imagined-haloI caught myself wearing such a personally inflating “headpiece” and getting it off was—and still is—quite a challenge.

Because I was an artist and creative thinker, I had deceived myself over a long period of time that I was somehow superior to others, when in reality, I was just a jerk. So my halo was counterfeit, but it keeps appearing from time to time.

Now, I won’t even allow other people to compliment me and perpetuate this fraud.

I made this unflattering self-discovery about myself upon being introduced to the transformative spiritual ideas of Emanuel Swedenborg and George Gurdjieff.

My only perception of specialness now, from studying their ideas, is that I was put on this earth for a special duty—to help the Lord God create a heaven from the human race. To do this I had to start with myself—by putting myself intentionally under the guidance of another living mind that knew me better than I knew myself.

Eternal happiness is obtained by sacrificing all that we have incorrectly judged from this terrestrial globe as representing the highest, self-gratifying pleasures.

So, unlike others who attend their place of worship to seek comfort, I am instead seeking discomfort, with an increased ability to explore all my illusory self-images that make me feel special, calm me down, and affirm my innate goodness.

Genuine goodness does not come from training oneself to act properly in society and performing positive deeds. Egoism, if not noticed, will easily mingle with the best of our activities. Egoism will even get its foot in the door to spiritual love, because it is itself a form of love.

The hardest thing I have ever had to do is to remove my sneaky self-centeredness from all my outward acts of kindness. I have to make my new—and more genuine—halo from scratch!


About thegodguy

EDWARD F. SYLVIA, M.T.S. Philosopher/Theologian Edward F. Sylvia attended the School of Visual Arts in New York and received his Master of Theological Studies at the Pacific School of Religion in Berkeley, CA and a Certificate of Swedenborgian Studies from the Swedenborgian House of Studies. He is a member of the Center for Theology and the Natural Sciences (C.T.N.S.) and the Swedenborg Scientific Association (S.S.A.). Award-winning author of "Sermon From the Compost Pile: Seven Steps Toward Creating An Inner Garden" and "Proving God," which fulfills a continuing vision that God’s fingerprints of love can be found everywhere in the manifest universe. His most recent book, "Swedenborg & Gurdjieff: The Missing Links" is an edgy collection of anti-intuitive essays for personal transformation that challenges and inspires. He has been a student of the ideas of both Emanuel Swedenborg and George I. Gurdjieff for over thirty years. Read more about TheGodGuy, his books and his ideas at
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